Pain

As I watched dexter , I imagined what it would be like for a split second . Inflicting pain on others

I thought about all the Spanish series I watched . The blood oozing from their victims . I wondered how they felt seeing those helpless people beg for their lives

See the thrill for me wasn’t in the begging. I always thought If I became a killer, I wouldn’t let my victims talk. They beg too much and I’m a softie

See instead I relish in the pain inflicted on them . Seeing them bleed, seeing them lifeless .

I often ask myself if I had a gun would I do it . Would I really kill ?

But I guess I’ll never know because I have no fucking idea on how to get a gun.